I’m semi-convinced that this is all in my head, but I’ve noticed a marked increase in my confidence in the last two weeks (the time since I finally admitted to myself that I am trans). It’s not across the board, but in a lot of situations, the way I interact with people is changing. The more I use my real (vs. legal) name and think of myself as a guy in transition, the more I feel as if this terrible anxiety – an anxiety I didn’t even realize was there – has been lifted off of my shoulders. Each next step is liberating and exhilarating. Even without any real physical changes thus far, for the first time in my life, I can look in the mirror and see myself.
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